Wednesday, February 22, 2006 ;
2:35 AM
Happy Thinking Day, guides! I don't really know what it's for, but Happy Thinking Day all the same haha.
Tessa
every day is a new day ♥
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 ;
4:04 AM
deleted the post. no point anyway. haha. i guess i misunderstood both our actions. so paranoid. =)
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Monday, February 20, 2006 ;
5:40 AM
looks like fun.yeah go describe me!!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=jochenglooking forward.
jo
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Saturday, February 18, 2006 ;
7:24 PM
People who have the courage to spam others' blogs should also have the courage to put down their names. And I mean their real names. Otherwise, what's the bloody point of upsetting people and wanting people to change when we don't even know who you are? If you want to publicise a bad image of a person on his/her blog by creating ugly comments then BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO PUT DOWN YOUR OWN NAME. If not, you might as well not bother. Which brings me to another thing. Why don't you just SPIT IT into the person's face personally? Give the person the ugly truth face-to-face? Why don't you? Huh?Anyway, at least other people are cute, and because you aren't, you're FREAKING JEALOUS. And you're a spiteful, hateful, shitful, loaded with crap, messed-up idiot. You're a freaking coward, and you know it. Happy spamming, whoever you are.Tessa
every day is a new day ♥
Tuesday, February 14, 2006 ;
3:19 AM
Here to save our blog from destruction again.
yeah. happy valentine's day before i forget.
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Life's been really gOod. *note sarcasm* I don't know why, it seems I have lost that passion for work, for study. Oh for that matter, why do we study anyway? Quench our thrist for knowledge? For the sake of education? For the sake of showing off you can study? I really do not understand. Well, maybe I do. But I guess I still wonder at times. Everything here is so routine. Go school, (CCA), come back home, do homework, revise, sleep. It repeats itself. On and on. A cycle. We don't really have a lot of fun these days. Of cause there's exception. But it's not me. I miss those childhood times where everything is so innocent and happy and free. Living and enjoying life. But what do we do now? No time for life. Every day do the same old things. This freaks me out. And tires me so. Also what I find ridiculous and amazing is that we students can sleep at unearthly hours of 2am to 3am!! Some even 5am. HAIZ. That is so unhealthy and it's destroying us. Oh gosh. And why all that competitiveness and showing-off. It's killing me. Can't take it. Before test people go around "Can test me this?" "Aiyoh I vely scared leh""Die lah! Never learn this"... Some people give you more stress by reciting completely whatever that could be tested. Added unneccessary stress. And this type of peeps practically piss me off greatly. YEah, we know you are pro but please, keep what your brilliant mind has learnt to yourself. It'll soothe my burning anger if you're the ones who are brilliant but help other people who are weaker, like a friend of mine. And after test people go around asking "Eh wat answer u put for mou2 mou2 question?", plus those ego-ed peeps who go "YES!!! i got it. oh my gosh. EEKS!!!" *dots* Probably I'm saying this too harshly but seriously, I do think people are too self-centred and only do things for their benefit. It's hard to find people who are really true in their words and actions. It's difficult to build a close and truthful relationship with somebody else. It does happen, however. But currently not me. Which to me is something that I'm praying for. Because I feel now, I do not care if others turn against me, ignore me, treat me with ugly stares blah blah, if I had a real friend, I would be very much happy. And I can live life. The way I want. Not tied down by any constraints. Not held back by work and stress. Enjoy life. Live life. Be life. And appreciate what God has given me. He seems so faraway sometimes. but I have to seek Him first before all things that are blessed will happen. He's the only one I can find solace in in times of need and helplessness. Grace be to Him. :)
Come to think of it, study isn't bad. but I hate all that competitiveness and people running to that top of the pyramid. Well some competitiveness may do us good. but too much'll just break us. Unless you've got really strong perseverance and motivated self. Oh for pete's sake. What rubbish am I talking about. Main point I want to say is that all that matters is our: SELF CONFIDENCE. No matter how bad we may seem at things, we have to be confident that we're still good. We've done our best. But our limit we may never know, I must admit. Anyway life in itself is a learning journey. I realise whatever troubles, problems, difficulties(esp people), all that are just stuff to make us grow. Imagine us being well taken care of, jiao1 sheng1 guan4 yang3, meet any cuo4 ze2 and then cry and break down and feel sorry for ourselves. That is seriously pathetic. I was like that once. That was real dumb I tell you. No use at all what. We fight and we learn. Don't ever feel sorry for ourselves. We're human. We are capable of lots of things. Just study and work at our own pace. For our biggest competitor is ourselves. Not others. Not everything has to be perfect. Just do my best. Don't let others affect me.
Makes me think of John Donne's "Death be not proud". (though a bit out of point)Had a lot of fun analysing and reading it. Truly, absolutely agree with him. What we are waiting for is not that fame and glory and certificates and degrees and results... The ultimate is eternal life. Life on earth and death are just phases. Moulding us into better individuals worthy of entering that wonderful place with Him. (exclude death of cos) So I tell myself. All these pain and suffering will end soon. I'm waiting.
jo
every day is a new day ♥
